when you’re on that spot where you’re either gonna get a B or a C. and this entirely depends on your final exam. but then you end up getting a D. i feel like this is going to happen to me this week -__-
i dont mind if they cancel classes all through out next week and postpone exams to be the week after. or a few days delayed. i really dont mind.
starving myself and not getting sleep just helped my depression grow. add to that all the stress and grades and deadlines and exams at school coupled with deadlines here at home. add to that a stupid fight -__- it was just so overwhelming. i had no ennergy for anything. i felt vey weak and as if i had no control of anything - as in all aspects of my life.
but today i decided to make myself some damn nutribullet and ate breakfast. slept from 12- 7 pm and now eat dinner and be excited instead of worried about studying for exams. the only sad thing that happened today was that i missed the snow. my mood, my feelings, emotions, mental whaddayacall it can calm itself just like that. but it deteriorates as fast as no other.
my depression develops from so many different things for a length of time. and each day it does gets harder and harder until i cant handle it anymore
a close friend once told me to do stuff for myself and do things a little at a time. and im now just trying that. it’s difficult when you find yourself alone sometimes but it’s tiring always being the weak one
thank you(: sounds like someone i know would say ^_^
fights suck -__- sheesh. loser
no use for countdowns anymore. but hey sister’s birthday in 3 days and sem over in 7 days.
why do i still feel so hurt?
being left by yourself when you needed someone. so painful.
i’m having another episode of depression and i just need someone to be there for me despite all the things that im doing wrong. i just really need someone to understand me without having to know all the details but just to know that im in need of someone to lean on. and just be there for me.
'Twas the week before finals, and all through the town
Not a student was drinking, not a frat made a sound
The adderall popped and the coffee was drank
In hopes that your mind won’t suddenly blank
The guys and the chicks depart from their beds
While visions of passing danced around in their…